Month: December 2015
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Happy Holidays
I just wanted to wish everyone a happy holiday. I really appreciate all of the comments and support that I have received from readers. Thank you. It has helped me tremendously.
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Doubts
So my world has been rocked by this miscarriage. Not only are we having to deal with the emotions of losing a baby, I’m also struggling with my beliefs about pregnancy in general. No longer am I naïve about the certainty of carrying a baby to term or the unbridled joy associated with a pregnancy.…
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Emotional Check-up
Emotionally, I am a little erratic. I don’t feel anger or denial towards my miscarriage, but I do have this overwhelming sense of sadness. It’s like my idea of a future with this baby has suddenly disappeared, and now I don’t know what to do but stumble in and out of my own sorrow. I have no problem keeping my…
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Frivolous Rebellions
So immediately after my miscarriage I found myself doing the stupidest things in direct rebellion of my failed pregnancy. When it came time to scoop the litter box, I volunteered. When deciding what to eat for lunch, I made the biggest turkey sandwich possible. Given a choice between Tylenol and Advil – I didn’t hesitate…
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Dilation and Curettage (D&C)
There are basically three options when faced with a miscarriage, and we chose option #3 – a D&C. I don’t think a D&C is the right choice for everyone, but it was the best choice for our situation. And I guess there is no need to sugar coat it – it hurts. At one point,…
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Big Scary IVF – The Results
I am a wreck. The doctor today confirmed that my pregnancy has ended. The embryo stopped growing somewhere between 5 and 6 weeks and we never saw a heartbeat. This whole process has been a stressful rollercoaster ride that has given us stress, hope, anxiety, and ultimately a hard-earned loss. I am disappointed, emotionally overwhelmed,…
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The Sound of Screeching Brakes Right Before an Accident
I went into the fertility office today thinking that I was finally going to be able to relax. I was convinced that the sonogram was going to show a steady heartbeat, and that our initial pregnancy scares were just scares. There was no heartbeat. The doctor said that it appeared the embryo stopped growing about…
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