Emotional Check-up

Trying not to break down writing this post

Emotionally, I am a little erratic. I don’t feel anger or denial towards my miscarriage, but I do have this overwhelming sense of sadness. It’s like my idea of a future with this baby has suddenly disappeared, and now I don’t know what to do but stumble in and out of my own sorrow. I have no problem keeping my happy face on and explaining to others what has happened. I assure them that I am okay, and that everything will be fine. But the truth is – I’m not okay. It’s in the quiet moments, when I get a few minutes to myself, that my grief rises. And before you know it I am choking back tears and sobs by what I have lost. My sadness drowns me and I struggle to calm down and wipe my tears before anyone else can see me. I am heartbroken. We lost a baby girl.

2 responses to “Emotional Check-up”

  1. I’m so sorry you have this rollercoaster on your shoulders. It’s OK to not be OK, the grief doesn’t ever go away, but you are doing amazing to be sharing your story with friends. Take care of yourself first over these holidays. I hope you start to feel a little better soon. Big hugs X

    1. Thank you! I really appreciate your support and kind words. I hope you have a wonderful, warm holiday.

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