Emotionally, I am a little erratic. I don’t feel anger or denial towards my miscarriage, but I do have this overwhelming sense of sadness. It’s like my idea of a future with this baby has suddenly disappeared, and now I don’t know what to do but stumble in and out of my own sorrow. I have no problem keeping my happy face on and explaining to others what has happened. I assure them that I am okay, and that everything will be fine. But the truth is – I’m not okay. It’s in the quiet moments, when I get a few minutes to myself, that my grief rises. And before you know it I am choking back tears and sobs by what I have lost. My sadness drowns me and I struggle to calm down and wipe my tears before anyone else can see me. I am heartbroken. We lost a baby girl.