Dreaded Result

I am horrified right now. The nurse finally called back with the hcg result. I am pregnant with an hcg value of 8. I feel like crying. This is exactly what I didn’t want to have happen. And now here I am, in almost the exact position I was in with my first failed ivf pregnancy. Besides feeling lost and discouraged, I am extremely frustrated. After taking the home pregnancy test yesterday, I truly didn’t think that the result was going to come back positive. I had prepared myself for bad news and now I am receiving news that is even worse. I’m pregnant, but I will most likely miscarry. I don’t understand why this is happening to me. Obviously something is not right, but I have no idea what it is. Is it my body’s fault? Are my hormones off? Is there something wrong with the embryo? Is it the medical facilities fault? Is it the process? I don’t know, and I am so frustrated. I don’t know what to do.

Our doctor had wanted us to start intramuscular progesterone shots for this transfer and I chose the suppositories instead. I was really against injecting a large needle in my butt everyday, but at this point I am desperate. My husband and I are going to start doing the shots. I feel like we have to do something different this go around, because if we don’t – I know exactly how this pregnancy will end. Has anyone else out there had multiple fresh or frozen embryo transfers (FET) that resulted in miscarriages with a low hcg value? Has anyone figured out why or eventually had success? (Please, I am grasping for answers at this point. . . .)

9 responses to “Dreaded Result”

  1. Ugh! I’m so sorry. I will say that my doctor always gave me the option of supps or shots during fresh cycles but forced us to use the PIO for FET cycles. Fun? Absolutely not but effective for many! Good luck!! Rooting for you and cheering you on!! Don’t give up. Do you meet with your doctor to discuss this or just start next cycle?

    1. Yea, I would love for the progesterone shots to be the answer, but I really don’t know. I am going to start them tonight, but who knows if they will be effective at this stage or if that is even the problem. I’m going to meet my doctor in a couple of days, but I already know he’s not going to have any answers. Thank you so much for your positivity. I could really use it right now 🙂

  2. I can’t speak personally as I don’t struggle with infertility – just recurrent miscarriage with no apparent reason. Bloody frustrating as hell.

    But. A friend of mine lost 6 babies before being put on progesterone. Then bam! 3 babies. Obv it could be a huge coincidence but she swore by it. If it can’t do any harm, then ya gotta at least give it a shot. My hubby always says that when you finally get that little baby, it’ll make all the crap along the way sooo worth it xx

    1. Thanks Nicola. I really hope that you’re right, and that the progesterone is the answer. Plus, like you said – it definitely can’t hurt us to try. Thank you for responding 🙂 I’m feeling a little more positive today.

    1. Thank you, I could use the hug. 🙂

  3. Hello! I’m sorry to hear about your news. On a positive note, having a positive blood test means it implanted. That’s the first step. Now we both need the next steps. 😊My last cycle my level was at 16. A no go for me too. My numbers kept increasing but at a ridiculously slow rate. Finally after 7 weeks of waiting my level finally went down some yesterday. I was on the progesterone in oil shots and will be for the next cycle as well. They aren’t a good time, but I just got used to it and they ended up not being too bad. It especially helped to have the mindset that it will all be worth it in the end! Keep your head up!

    1. I am so sorry to hear about your hcg levels lowering 😦 Grrr. I wish that ivf had a higher success rate, and that going through these losses was not so common. A big hug to you, and thank you for sharing your story. I really wish I had answers, for both of us!

      1. I’m actually happy that they are lowering because once the increases were abnormal they said it wasn’t viable. Once I got over that blow I just wanted to move forward, but my body wouldn’t let me. I’m hoping to have a negative test next week then get back on BC at the end of the month. I know it sounds ridiculous to hope for a negative test, but when it can’t become a growing baby… I’m just ready for the next steps.
        I thought there was more success with IVF than there seems to be – it is surprising for sure. We will have better luck next time!

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