Once again I am terrified of writing this post. I don’t want to jinx myself or this pregnancy. I saw a heartbeat today. This perfect, cute little heartbeat that was pumping at 119 beats per minute. And let me just tell you how terrified I am right now. I am beyond freaked out that this pregnancy will end, and I feel this uncertain panic emanating from the pit of my stomach. (I really hope this feeling goes away!) Yes, I am thrilled that we are pregnant and that everything is looking good, but I never expected to make it this far with this pregnancy. I never expected to see a heartbeat at 6 weeks and 3 days. And now that I’ve seen it – I desperately don’t want it to be taken away. Please, to all things holy and good with the world, please don’t take this away from me.