Well, I have successfully transitioned to a new OB/GYN and I like him. I had heard good things about him, and after I explained my whole situation – my infertility history, my miscarriage, this new pregnancy, and how I’m currently struggling with anxiety – he agreed that having a sonogram every week was a great idea. (Oh thank god!) I can’t even begin to describe the relief I felt once I heard those words! I was really concerned that he was going to minimalize my fears and try to discard my anxiety, but that’s not what happened. He took the time to listen to what I was saying and for that I am so very grateful. I went to the new OB/GYN office on Wednesday and then I had my first standard ultrasound today. I didn’t think the technician was going to see anything (I guess I had gotten so used to vaginal ultrasounds that I didn’t think anything else was going to work), but the baby and his heartbeat could clearly be seen. Once she turned on the audio for the heartbeat monitor I nearly lost it. I still can’t believe that I’ve made it this far with the pregnancy. It’s like a Christmas miracle . . but in April.

But the next big hurdle, I know, is going to be coming off of the meds. My reproductive doctor said that I should stop at 10 weeks, but I could continue to 12 weeks if it makes me feel more comfortable. Since I’m currently at 9 weeks, 4 days, I’m not sure what I’m going to do . . .