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Was It Worth It?
I have been asking myself this question for 5 years. Has the cost, the invasive surgeries, the heartache, the anxiety, and the sacrifices we’ve had to make been worth it? *sigh* The short answer is yes. Everything we have done on our infertility journey has been worth it to get our two boys. The long…
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Um, I Think My Water Just Broke
Disclaimer I’m writing this post on approximately 4 hours of sleep. It may not be fully coherent . . . please forgive my ramblings. I blame all of this on my husband. While he was cutting tomatoes for dinner this past Sunday night, he nearly sliced the tip of his thumb off. He started yelling…
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Waiting
Well, I’ve made it to 36 weeks, and I am actively waiting. Waiting for this pregnancy to be over. You would think that I would be reveling in the fact that I am pregnant, basking in the maternal glow before the storm of delivery . . . but no. Mostly I just want to be…
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Oh Poo, How I Hate You
I realize that I haven’t written anything pregnancy or infertility related in quite some time (eek! Almost 4 weeks) but not for lack of something to say. Rather I have been full-on inundated in the horrifying reality of potty training. And it sucks. So . . . starting about 6 or 7 months ago when…
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Imaginary Conversations
Okay, so please don’t think that I’m wacko, but I’ve been having imaginary conversations with my unborn baby . . . and it has really helped with my anxiety. Once the baby started kicking (and has subsequently refused to stop) my imaginary conversations have slowed down, but in the beginning my imaginary conversations were really…
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Whoo-hoo!
I don’t have gestational diabetes! I was so excited yesterday when I found out that I immediately went and bought some sugar-loaded candy to celebrate. Not very smart, but damnit I wanted that candy! I also made some progress switching obgyns now that I don’t have to worry about any additional diabetic follow-up appointments. I’m…
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When it Rains . . .Sometimes You Should Just Dry Off and Try Not to Freak Out!
So the good news first – I don’t have vasa previa!! Well, at least the sonogram didn’t show any tissue between the cervix and the placenta this past week. The tech mentioned that the baby moved from a transverse position into a heads down position, which could have pushed stuff out of the way –…
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Itchy Armpits and Drooling
I think many women who have suffered from infertility would describe pregnancy as a long awaited oasis. It’s a dream come true achievement that is filled with thoughts about baby names, nursery decorations, and expanding belly lines. But that’s not what it’s all about. Being pregnant is also about itchy armpits and drooling so horrible…
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In Memory
I’ve been sewing off and on throughout this pregnancy, and I’ve been looking for ways to let go of my anxiety – especially after our miscarriage. I wanted to honor the baby girl that we lost so that I could prepare myself for the baby boy that is headed our way . . . so…