Tag: miscarriage
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In Memory
I’ve been sewing off and on throughout this pregnancy, and I’ve been looking for ways to let go of my anxiety – especially after our miscarriage. I wanted to honor the baby girl that we lost so that I could prepare myself for the baby boy that is headed our way . . . so…
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Well, Shit.
On Monday we had our weekly blood draw after I had reduced my progesterone dose from 1 ml to ¾ ml for two days. After calling the doctor’s office to find out the result, I was stunned to learn that our number dropped from 30 ng/ml to 20 ng/ml. What the hell! I had expected…
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Symptoms
I haven’t talked about my pregnancy symptoms, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t had any. And the real reason why I’ve been avoiding even thinking about them is because that would be too close to celebrating this pregnancy. Which I know sounds a little crazy. I just don’t want to celebrate this pregnancy until I’ve…
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Coming off the Meds
Once again I am frantic. (I hate that this is the theme of my life right now) I’m afraid of coming off of my meds and miscarrying this baby. It doesn’t help that I fully believe the only reason we haven’t miscarried so far is because of the help we’ve received from the progesterone shots.…
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Yellow Meditation
The person who put me up to this was my sister. She is a certified counselor who has done a fair amount of work studying meditation and internal energy including chakras. Basically, many people believe that chakras are energy points in the body that can affect your health depending on whether or not they are…
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I Didn’t Last the Weekend
So . . . I basically managed to convince myself over the weekend that the pregnancy had failed. Not because I felt cramps or started bleeding, but because every horrible scenario possible ran through my mind on repeat. I’m not super proud of it, but I’m scared. I want this pregnancy to work, and my…
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A Healthy Dose of Anxiety
I am struggling with anxiety. Everyday I wake up hoping that the pregnancy won’t end, and then I obsess over every little thing that could go wrong. The embryo could stop growing, our next ultrasound may not show a heartbeat, I could accidentally eat feta cheese and get listeria, or maybe I’m stressing my self…
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Some Advice
So, my mom is definitely a unique individual. I give her a lot of credit because she raised three children (two of us were twins) without a lot of help, worked full time, cooked, cleaned, and did almost everything for us while my dad brought home a paycheck and sat on the couch the rest of…
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The Sac
Last Friday our vaginal exam revealed a gestational sac in the uterus (hooray, this is not an ectopic pregnancy!) And I realize that I should be overjoyed at this point, but I am getting more and more nervous and terrified that this pregnancy will end. Our last embryo stopped growing right around the 6 week mark,…
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Um, What?
Since last Monday, the doctor has been monitoring my hcg values to see where this pregnancy is headed. And now not only am I frustrated, but I’m also confused. Ideally, you want your hcg value to double every two days, and our numbers have been doubling like crazy. We started with an hcg value of…
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